Oh. It's you.
It's been a long time.
It has indeed been a life since I last posted anything, even a comment on someone's submission. This journal is not to say that I'm back to being regularly active here, but it's more of simply a regular journal entry in the traditional sense--a documenting of my thoughts at the moment.
As stated, it was a life ago that I posted, which means that I'm living a new life now. I tried this once before, to hit the reset switch and create something of myself, but that ended up failing because of my own faults, and unfortunately because of some things I foresaw that came to be true, as much as the people of subject assured me that it wouldn't come true.
So here I am, a new person, a new view of life, and a new name (not a new username until I get enough points or a one-month subscription to make the change, if I don't create a new account altogether, but I'd rather just keep this one so that the submissions I have can still be accessed.).
It's not necessary that I explain what has changed; it's only important that we all understand that we all change. Never from one moment to the next are we the same person as before. We are alive, and therefore we are dynamic.
To summarize the changes, I believe that I have aligned more with the me that I am at the soul; the me that I was was not in alignment with the me who needs to be manifested into this shared reality that we all experience.
Mistakes in life have been made. Ambitions have formed. And both of those must be learning experiences. We must question the world around us, asking why this is this, why that is that, why these people want me to live like this, or why those people are happier than others. And we need to not only find, but create that which makes us feel most at peace with ourselves, as individuals, and in relation to one another.
I simply wasn't living that the last time I was active here. But I now recognize the things I need to learn, and the paths which hold the things I need to learn that I've yet to fathom. And I will walk those paths to learn what I can to live in peace in this world, for myself, and for others.
Oddly enough, it was around the restart of the Mayan calendar that all of this seemed to begin. It was within days, at most, of December 21st that something within me shifted; that my sealed mind had cracked enough that something in the greater reality could find its way in. And since then, I believe I have consciously opened and expanded to a much greater understanding of creation and the universe around me. It was an awakening which is still happening today. Perhaps not enlightened, but my eyes are open, and I have had a rebirth into a new life that, although it isn't filled with the luxuries that we're conditioned to think that we all should have, is far greater than I had ever imagined. Troubles exist, no doubt; but I see the world vastly different than I did before.
This account may still not be very active, but there will hopefully be more variety in the art and content posted here in the future.
Also, I'll be studying in Hirosaki, Japan for ten months, beginning in September, probably landing in Tokyo on the 22nd (my physical birthday) to get hammered with sushi, sake, and all the non-American food I can eat because they have a magical thing in Japan that isn't found in the US, called "flavor."
If you're in the area between September and late June, let me know.
Love and life, everyone!